leftovers

OK... so I sort of fell off the wagon a bit. I haven't really been too bad - no total binge eating or anything. I even made it to the gym a few times last week. But the weekend was total Chaos - between the KROQ Inland Invasion and the Emmy's, it was just a blur. A fun blur, but filled with junk food and alcohol. Anyway, I bought the "South Beach" good carbs/bad carbs guide book and I'm going to go back on the diet next week. I did the South Beach once and did manage to lose 10 lbs. I didn't want to do it again because I just didn't feel like concentrating that hard, but obviously I need something like that to add boundaries. So, I'm going to take it easy this week, and then next week I'm going for it 100% again.

Well I didn't even make it to the gym last night. I am not doing so well right now but I'm not too worried. I am determined to keep doing this, and maybe it's better to not be so strict at first. After all, only 2 weeks ago I was eating fast food twice a day, snaking on candy bars and chips, and not working out at all. Even the work I have done this weeks is leaps and bounds better than that. I do plan on going to the gym after work today and one day this weekend. Blondie is playing tomorrow in Newport Beach so I may go to that, I'm just scared of driving my car all the way down there. My car is a piece of crap and it's about to fall apart, and I kept thinking my boyfriend would have a car by now, but no, he just keeps putting off buying a new car. We're mixing and recording more this weekend. The songs are sounding really good.

Hmm... it's at this point in the journey that I feel as though I'm walking through molasses. I don't seem to be losing weight (I was back at 192 last night!) and now the cravings for junk food have successfully done me in several times! I went to the gym last night but only managed to do about 30 minutes of leg work and some chest exercizes before I had to throw in the towel. Afterwards, I did go to the grocery store so I could again stock up on healthy foods. I do feel somewhat discouraged but it also makes me want to work harder. I know that the work I have been doing is going to pay off, I just need to work a little harder at this to really feel good about it. When I got home, I drank most of a bottle of red wine and wrote a letter to my pen pal, Michael Alig. Then I went to bed.

Well I felt that I did pretty well through the long labor day weekend. Exceptions were made but nothing that made me feel too awful. On Saturday, I got to travel to Laguna beach to hang out with a couple gals who used to be in a band, that happens to be one of my favorite bands ever. I met them in England last year at one of their 'reunion tour' shows in Birmingham. I haven't seen them since then and it was really nice to get to hang out and chat with them. It was so much fun that when I got home and found my rear passenger window of my car smashed in, I really tried not to let it get me down. Days later I discovered my CD book L-S was missing, so basically every CD I owned with artists names beginning with L through S (Kylie, Madonna, The Spice Girls, Siouxsie, etc) are all gone. Sad, Sad, Sad. I did end up going to the gym on Saturday, which was good, and I was down to 189 lbs! I was very happy about that, although yesterday I was back up to 191. I feel confid

Well TGIF and aren't I in high spirits? My boss is gone, and just called from the airport to say I could leave at 1pm today! So I've got a 3 1/2 day weekend ahead of me which is great. Yesterday I was not as great as I have been. I didn't go anywhere on my lunch break, and I had a shrimp salad from Baja Fresh. I did do 50 sit-ups and push-ups here in the office when my boss went to the bank. After work, I went to the gym and did 50 minutes on the elliptical machine and then lifted free weights. I was there about 1 1/2 hours. Then I went to eat dinner at Koo Koo Roo, I had a chicken breast with italian vegetables and butternut squash. I was still sort of hungry, though. Then I went over to the 'band hangout' with the intention of recording my piano part for one of our new songs, but I had forgotten the damper pedal so I couldn't do it. Then Melissa, our friend who has her own music projects, came over so that my brother could help her mixing some track

I think I went a little overboard yesterday. I rode my new bike at work on my lunch break for an hour - went home, went to Amoeba and then back to work, which is quite a long way for me to be riding a bike. Then, after work I went to the gym and worked out for over 2 hours and felt totally dead by the end of it. I actually felt dead halfway through, so I bribed myself by getting a drink (high protein./no carbs) and a 'nutritious' cookie (if there is such a thing.) The good news is that I'm down to 193lbs again, so hopefully it will just keep dropping for a little while. Other than that not much news to report. I have been eating well, I had scrambled eggs w/spinach & cheese for breakfast, then a salad for lunch and one for dinner and snacking on fat-free/sugar-free pudding. Plan on going to the gym after work today but not for 2 hours this time. I think I'll keep the fairly strict diet for at least 2 weeks and then may splurge a little bit one day the week

Well first the bad news. I got on the scale yesterday and weighed 195lbs! How can that be?!?! I guess it was the weekend, still catching up with me. All that booze and junk food. Well, those pounds better beware because they're going to be gone soon. Yesterday for my lunch break I had to return some videos, so I walked. I walked my whole hour lunch break at a pretty quick pace, and instead of having a proper lunch I snacked on carrots and sunflower seeds. After work, I went to Gold's Gym and did 45 min. on the elliptical machine, and then did free-weights for awhile. Afterwards I went home and had a nice Shrimp salad from Burger King. It feels kind of weird being on a diet and eating salads from fast food joints. It was really good, though. Later in the evening, I jogged down to the grocery store, which is actually quite aways from my house. It was a nice little jog and I felt very urban, jogging down Western Ave. in Koreatown. The bright signs in foreign languages i