the beginning (?)
Well this is interesting. I never meant to Blog. And now it seems I'm not meant to, as I can't seem to figure out how to work this. Wait, I just figured it out.
Anyway, the only reason I am starting this blog is sort of a silly one. I've been trying for months now to start a diet & work out program. A lifestyle change. With each passing week, I slip further and further into irresponsible eating, over-indulging, binge-drinking, etc... and it's just finally gotten to that point where I REALLY must stop it. And, although I have been at this point for several weeks now, I just have to do something, ANYTHING, to get my life back into my control. By that, I just mean about the eating & working out. The rest is OK for now (although my finances could use some work).
To explain things, I am 27 and in a band. I also have a day job working in an office. I like to eat food a lot, and I love fast food. I also love cookies and muffins. I like Ice Cream too but not as much as cookies and muffins. I love beer and boxed wine (or bottled.) And I've been paying way too much for a gym membership that I rarely use. I have, for brief spats of time, gone on diets and worked out several times a week but it has never lasted as long as I'd like.
As far as being in a band and wishing some sort of success with that, I do take it seriously and often tear myself apart with regards to my appearance and my unhappiness with my physical self. If I want to attract attention of gay guys, I have to appeal to the very same things I look for when looking at gay guys, which is unfortunaly very body-oriented. So, if I want to play the game, I must play the game.
To complicate matters is the impending 10 year reunion of my high school graduating class. Less than 9 months to go now, which is scary. I had intended to go back rich, famous, wealthy, and with a killer body. 9 months to go and I am scrambling to figure out how to give my life even a slight semblance to the life I wanted to show off. Not that I am unhappy with my life, I just set goals way too high, thinking I will, in the end, be OK with the actual outcome. But I rarely am.
Today, I woke up and packed my gym bag. I am going to make a triumphant return to Gold's Gym today after work. I am not going to eat lunch today. I am going to go shopping tonight for good, healthy foods to stock my home with. And last but not least, I am going to devote myself to improving my life starting today.
And that's where this blog comes in. I figure if I have something to keep track of my progress, something to keep me on target, something to make me a little more scared of failing... then I might just succeed.
Here's to me... let's see how this unfolds.
Anyway, the only reason I am starting this blog is sort of a silly one. I've been trying for months now to start a diet & work out program. A lifestyle change. With each passing week, I slip further and further into irresponsible eating, over-indulging, binge-drinking, etc... and it's just finally gotten to that point where I REALLY must stop it. And, although I have been at this point for several weeks now, I just have to do something, ANYTHING, to get my life back into my control. By that, I just mean about the eating & working out. The rest is OK for now (although my finances could use some work).
To explain things, I am 27 and in a band. I also have a day job working in an office. I like to eat food a lot, and I love fast food. I also love cookies and muffins. I like Ice Cream too but not as much as cookies and muffins. I love beer and boxed wine (or bottled.) And I've been paying way too much for a gym membership that I rarely use. I have, for brief spats of time, gone on diets and worked out several times a week but it has never lasted as long as I'd like.
As far as being in a band and wishing some sort of success with that, I do take it seriously and often tear myself apart with regards to my appearance and my unhappiness with my physical self. If I want to attract attention of gay guys, I have to appeal to the very same things I look for when looking at gay guys, which is unfortunaly very body-oriented. So, if I want to play the game, I must play the game.
To complicate matters is the impending 10 year reunion of my high school graduating class. Less than 9 months to go now, which is scary. I had intended to go back rich, famous, wealthy, and with a killer body. 9 months to go and I am scrambling to figure out how to give my life even a slight semblance to the life I wanted to show off. Not that I am unhappy with my life, I just set goals way too high, thinking I will, in the end, be OK with the actual outcome. But I rarely am.
Today, I woke up and packed my gym bag. I am going to make a triumphant return to Gold's Gym today after work. I am not going to eat lunch today. I am going to go shopping tonight for good, healthy foods to stock my home with. And last but not least, I am going to devote myself to improving my life starting today.
And that's where this blog comes in. I figure if I have something to keep track of my progress, something to keep me on target, something to make me a little more scared of failing... then I might just succeed.
Here's to me... let's see how this unfolds.
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