Alien Nation

I'm back from Boston!!! It was so much fun and I plan to blog all about it, and even do a separate blog reviewing all the wonderful meals we had on the trip, but first there is something else I wanted to get off my chest, which was a realization I had while on the trip.
In Massachusetts and Connecticut, gay marriage is legal, and that was the impetus for this whole getaway. In my anger after Prop 8 passing here in California, which I had spent so much of my time and energy trying to defeat, I wanted to support the two states in this entire country that treat people like my partner and I equally. I wanted to see what this fairytale land was like where my committed relationship with my partner would actually be recognized by the government just like any other couple's. Also, I wanted to see my really good friend Courtney who had gotten married herself since the last time I saw her.
Anyway while on the trip I finally just realized that I am done fighting and being angry. I fought against Prop 8 and I did my part, but we lost and honestly I would rather have won because the majority of people voted against it because of their beliefs, not because of advertising or phone calls or pressure or guilt. Right now unfortunately is not the time, but obviously things are changing and soon discrimination against gays will be a thing of the past, at least for most people.
On the bright side, and what I really need to not take for granted, is that my life is fine and I have the love and support of my partner and both of our families. I know I am so lucky in that regard, and that despite everything I am able to live my life openly as who I am with a very minimal amount of negative repercussions. Maybe the state doesn't recognize our union, and there are throngs of people out there who harbor hatred and disgust for us, but I don't even know who those people are and I don't have to see them or deal with them on a day-to-day basis. My life is filled with people who love and support each other and who don't judge or use religion as a weapon. More people are growing to be accepting and loving, and understanding how believing in God does not have to mean condemning other people. Less and less people are holding on to old beliefs and old prejudices.
So, this is my last blog on Prop 8. I may not be completely happy or at peace but I am grateful for what I have and hopeful for the future. Someone else can do the fighting for now, I am going to focus on living for awhile.

With that, I also want to present the lyrics for my new song, Alien Nation, which I just finished the demo for last night. I am getting some help on this song so it still has a long way to go before I will present it but it is moving along and I'm so excited about it, I think it's my favorite song so far that I've done. I think it's something most of us can relate to, feeling like we've entered some other dimension where we just don't understand anything or anyone, I know that is how I felt for quite awhile during the whole election but now maybe I've made my way home after all.

Alien Nation

You took a tumble down the rabbit hole
and woke up in the strangest of places
You recognized everybody but you
Could not recall their faces
The air there was spiked with something
It got you having palpitation
And now you can't remember the way home
The way back from Alien Nation

And you might think that you're happy there,
You might think you belong
You might think that I am delirious
But maybe you would be wrong

You're living in Alien Nation
Trapped in your neurotic vacation
you look around but you don't know anyone at all,
Can't read the writing on the wall

You began to wonder if you had been
Placed in witness protection
So you tried to stay under the radar
always avoiding detection
But time went by and now you fear
That you're lost in the twilight zone
'Cause you look around at the the place where you live
But it hardly ever feels like home

And you might think that you're happy there,
You might think you belong
You might think that I am delirious
But maybe you would be wrong

You're living in Alien Nation
Trapped in your neurotic vacation
you look around but you don't know anyone at all,
Can't read the writing on the wall

One day I thought I heard you calling out to me
Just a disembodied voice on a radio frequency

And you might think that you're happy there,
You might think you belong
You might think that you want to be a millionaire
But I think you'd be wrong

You're living in Alien Nation
Trapped in your neurotic vacation
you look around but you don't know anyone at all,
Can't read the writing on the wall
(You're) hangin' with the little green men - extraterrestrian
An accidental immigration, and now you're livin' in
Alien nation - hangin' with the little green men - extraterrestrian
An accidental immigration, semi-psychotic situation
Heard you call me, radio frequency
Heard you call me, radio frequency